little love

it's been awhile since i've written anything about the kids and this makes me feel sad. what will sound ridiculous is that there's just so much to say. how can a mother adequately describe how she feels about her kids? how can she portray their many milestones and special moments with the same feeling she felt as they were happening? it's hard for me but i miss writing as i had been so i'm going to try to take a baby step and tell you about my baby. the other two will get their turn soon.

first of all, sarah took this picture of gavin a few weeks ago. he was making noises at the fake animals my grandma has in her garden beds out back. what i would like you to know about gavin is he is the most precious person in my world. i know i've said it before, he's the best baby and has the sweetest demeanor but there's so much more than just those things. he's like truly perfection. to me anyways.

now of course i adore his siblings, those other two children i gave birth to, but they argue with me and yell at me when they don't get their way. my adoration for them is the kind i need a break from every now and then. even when they were toddlers, like gavin, i would get so frustrated and impatient and question my entire existence. it was hard for me then. something changed with gavin. maybe it's my maturity? maybe i'm more patient? maybe i don't work anymore and i'm focused on being a mom? maybe it's just that gavin is a divine being? either way, i'm grateful for whatever is different because i enjoy each and every millisecond i get to be with him.

he makes morning time bearable. he thanks me for everything i put in his hands. he thanks me for things i haven't even given him yet. he blows me kisses and snuggles my neck. he says hello to everyone first thing when he wakes up and gives cayden high five every morning. he loves molly and my dad a lot. his facial expressions are timeless and his sounds are some that i never want to forget. he still won't walk and i gladly carry him around. he loves bath time and bedtime. every time i give him his blanket he reacts as if i've just handed him keys to the world.

gavin will be 16 months old this month. he's never fallen off the bed or down the stairs. he's incredibly cautious and content just being wherever i am. he loves to read books and watch movies. he loves to jump on my bed. he never complains when i put him in the car or when he's tired or hungry.

he loves dum dum suckers.

and popsicles too ...

he loves to be outside, playing in the dirt, riding his four wheeler or drawing with the chalk.

if they're coloring he wants to color. if they're swimming he wants to swim. when they sing the abc's he mimics and recently he learned e-i-e-i-o.

his dimples make everyone he comes in contact with smile. people stop me in public to talk to him and he listens.

he's my little love.