beautiful brooklyn

it's no secret that i think my daughter is beautiful. people tell her she's beautiful all the time and i joke with her and tell her to always say "thank you" and then "you should see my mother ..." she doesn't get it.

i haven't forgotten about brooklyn. i just haven't had time to blog lately. sometimes it seems like she gets the short end of every stick. stuck in the middle and i know how that feels. luckily, she is full of confidence and tough as nails. she is not a needy little girl and she does not demand our attention too often but sometimes, i notice that she's feeling left out and this is disheartening. she's excited that cayden is getting one visit after another from the tooth fairy. he's losing his teeth while gavin's finding his and she's happy for both of them as we all cheer them on. it's a big deal that cayden started first grade and that he can read. even that he has homework. he gets more attention because of these things alone. everything gavin does is celebrated with great enthusiasm and then there's brooklyn.

it's an interesting thing. cayden needs to constantly be told how great he is. i don't know why i know this or what it is about him that makes me know this. but it's the truth. brooklyn just seems to know she's great. she doesn't care that he can read while she can't, she knows her time will come. she doesn't seem to have anything to prove to anyone so i have to really work on remembering to tell her how wonderful she is. i hope she knows that i think she's wonderful.

recently we went to a bridal shower for her soon-to-be aunt lindsay. just like she did with natalie, she tells everyone that lindsay will be her aunt soon. she is so excited. at the shower i watched her snuggle up on my aunt trishell like they were best friends. she does this often with random people and it always surprises me. mostly because (and i hate to admit it), she doesn't do it with me very often. i'm not a huggy person. i wish this weren't the case. i wish it were easy for me to go around hugging and wanting to be hugged but i'm just not that way. she is huggy though and i'm glad that she is. she loves to hug and snuggle and so i am forever grateful to those who hug her back. thankful for her grammie's and her daddy, aunt trish and aunt diane. chris and sarah and amanda. her new aunts. even grandpa craig will spare a few snuggles. all these people who love her the way she deserves to be loved.


lately she's been walking around the house in the few pair of high heels that i own. she just can't stand it that i don't wear these shoes every single day. like she would give anything to be able to fit into high heels and wear them around with her shorts and t-shirt. i must be crazy. i remember doing this with my moms shoes. lucky for me my mom has really small feet and i was young when i finally was able to actually fit into them. unfortunately for brooklyn, i doubt this will ever happen. not before she can actually wear them for real anyway. she even put jakes boots on (yes, he wears these boots as often as he can get away with it. usually when i'm not paying attention). it was pretty funny to see her try to walk.


so she's wearing high heels and going to pre-school. we hit the dance studio once a week and she asks me every single morning if she has dance that day. even if she had it the day before. it drives me nuts. she loves it and if i can humbly say so, she's very good for her age. she came home yesterday announcing she was able to do her complete splits after a lot of practice and this is impressive to me because i never accomplished this goal as a young girl. hopefully within the next year we can start her in gymnastics. i know she would love it.

brooklyn is so fun for me because she reminds me so much of myself. sometimes when i'm watching her play it's almost like i can imagine exactly what she's thinking and how she's feeling. she's easy for me to reason with, i get her. of course i wish she weren't already pretending to have boyfriends and asking me everyday when she'll be old enough to wear makeup. i have a feeling we're going to have our hands full!

i love my little girl and all her beauty.